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31 October 2007 @ 09:06 am

 I feel so lost.
This song won't make me found.
Even my favorite band has changed their sound,
and I don't like it.

I can pretend like I'm happy.
I'm so good I even fool myself. (I'm a fool)
But when it comes to the end of the night,
I only barely have my health.

I have made mistakes
and forced goodbyes.
I've told girls so many lies.
I love you,. I love you. (I don't)

So how can I sleep easy
when I have no rest in my soul?
Where will my life take me?
There is no control.

So goodnight life.
I'm done with goals.
Wait, I can't live for nothing.
Because there will always be something.

Current Mood: apatheticapathetic
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30 October 2007 @ 08:31 am
I'm tired.
I'm sick of school.
I wish I could just hang out and socialize all day.
Current Location: ECTV
Current Music: Abstract computer noises and voices
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28 October 2007 @ 11:43 am
I need to find a good church here in Springfield. I miss Genesis. It was amazing. I'm still looking.
Current Music: Spill Canvas
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28 October 2007 @ 01:00 am
So I went on a "double date" tonight. It wasn't so much a date as two guys hanging out with two girls. HAH. It was cool though. Tristin, John and Courtney are really cool people. I'm glad to know them. We saw Jekeyll and Hyde the Musical. It was awesome. They had two sex scenes though... I wasn't happy about that but  now that I think about it I believe it was necessary for the story. Then we went to Steak 'n Shake and gave Courtney a hard time about a certain issue. John Wommack checked out some guy in drag and tried to gouge out his eyes immediately upon realization that it was a guy. Tristin had square sandwiches that were really triangle. and I believe in unity sex restrooms. It was a good time. 

Harvest Fest is coming up and I won't be able to enjoy it. I have to run camera... what ev, right?
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18 October 2007 @ 02:34 pm

On Tuesday night Luke, Jeremy, Zach and I were up until three in the morning discussing three theological beliefs.

They were:
Did God create Sin
Can one "lose" "salvation"
Are we predestined to make the decisions we do?
Here are my beliefs on the topics.
God did not create sin, sin was created by Lucifer, who was created by God. God created a being who had freedom of choice. Why did God give us freedom is a whole other thing but to touch on it I think it's because praise from someone who is doing it freely and by choice is worth so much more than forced praise.


I believe salvation can be lost. Once again God gave us freedom of choice. I believe that someone who is a true Christian will never choose to walk away from God, but it can/does happen.
Hebrews 10:26-27,29. For if we sin deliberately after receiving the knowledge of the truth, there no longer remains a sacrifice for sins, but a fearful prospect of judgment, and a fury of fire which will consume the adversaries. . . How much worse punishment do you think will be deserved by the man who has spurned the Son of God, and profaned the blood of the covenant by which he was sanctified, and outraged the Spirit of grace?

I don't believe God has our whole lives planned out for us, I simply believe He knows what we are going to do. But when it comes down to it the choice is still ours.

Current Location: K1N
Current Music: The Fold
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16 October 2007 @ 06:12 pm
  I don't know if any of you read this but I didn't end up going to Indiana. I went to Evangel University in Sprngfield, MO. It's cool. If any of you are thinking about going to an A/G college or just a Christian one I would be happy to talk to you about it.
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17 August 2007 @ 02:15 pm
I'm going away to school friday. I don't know how i'm going to come up with tuition but if it's Gods will it will be. Keep me in your prayers!

University Of Saint Francis, Fort Wayne, Indiana
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17 August 2007 @ 02:08 pm
I just installed ScribeFire. Does anyone else have it? Do you like it?

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07 August 2007 @ 10:00 pm

I believe every word my Grandma told me.
I believe every word she said.
She said she believed in heaven.
This is what she said.

"I can hear the angels singing
I can hear a holy praise
I can see the face of Jesus
I'm gonna leave this bed

I'm gonna see my husband.
He'll be alive and not dead.
I can see the face of Jesus.
I'm gonna leave this bed

So don't tell me there is no heaven.
Cause that's not what grandma said.
I believe in heaven.
Cause she was praising from her bed.

She could hear the angels singing.
She sang in holy praise.
She saw the face of Jesus
from a meaningless death bed.

So don't tell me there is no heaven.
Cause that's not what grandma said .
I believe in heaven.
She was praising from her bed.

Current Mood: blahblah
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16 June 2007 @ 10:53 am
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I think this is true for the most part.